Making a list and never checking it again

Already in my short blogging career I've made 2 lists: Things I'd like to see and do out here on the East Coast, and Books I'd like to have read before I die.  I'm not sure what it is about lists but I've never really made them before and now that I have (on a few occasions) given them a try I've found that it's rewarding in a sense to see things crossed off of a list.  To a certain extent I find comfort in seeing "things to do" dwindle.  I get a feeling of productivity, accomplishment, more importantly it's an opportunity to pat myself on the back and say Good Job.

On the other hand there is a sense of foreboding when you have this ambitious list lurking in the back of your head (see books to read).  I don't like that feeling.  The lists I have aren't really too scary in the grand scheme of things but there is a feeling that even as I rest, there is something I could be doing that's more productive.  I think that is where lists become a problem because no matter what we are doing there is probably a million things that we could be doing that would be of greater benefit.  Whenever a list of tasks is completed another one starts.  It never ends.  There is always something to do.  I recently saw this little pearl of wisdom and it went something along the lines of, "I'm a human being, not a human doing." We need to have plenty of time to just be.  I'm going to try and include that in my list of tasks to be completed.  Just Be.  Be the best you, you can be Be You.  Whether these lists of mine will ever get completely crossed off I don't know.  If I were a betting man (and in most cases I certainly am) I'd say the smart money is on me not getting them done.  But who cares?  It's my list.  Just because I typed it up and put it online for the whole world to see doesn't mean I have to finish it to become a better me.

Side note: That blog took a strange turn, that isn't the direction I wanted to go with that but I sort of got on a role.  I could change it but I think I'll just let it be.